Almost two years ago, I sat here and wrote my first ever blog post, The Journey Begins. I had just been diagnosed with two rather serious autoimmune diseases, and I was out of my mind with fear and anxiety. I was depressed for over a year, psychotic for a short period of time, and I walked through a darkness that almost consumed me. I look at my life now and it’s hard to believe that I was that person just two years ago.
Every ugly emotion that could be felt, was felt by me. There was a period of about 4 or 6 months that I was just a monster. I fought an internal rage on a daily basis, and usually lost that battle. My family was terrified of me and terrified for me and what I was dealing with. All the while, my husband stayed faithfully by my side. As much as I hate to publicly admit the things that I put him through, it must be said in the hopes that it might help someone else battling similar demons.
Today, I am once again filled with more love and light and less dark and dreary. I am filled with gratitude for the first two years of my autoimmune life and all of the lessons that this journey has brought to me. I am now much calmer and wiser than ever before and for that I am grateful.
I no longer keep a job and that has been a difficult adjustment for me. My husband supports me and I’m blessed to be in a position where I can stay home with our kids while he works. This has brought me a wonderful opportunity to work on my Etsy shop, tarot readings and writing. I enjoy my days working on several projects and taking care of my boys. Life is good now and for the first time ever, I am looking forward to what is to come.
Brightest Blessings everyone!